“Change brings awareness. Awareness brings change.”

[T]hat thought came to mind as I sat with my friend Charlie at Coffee Bean. We were entered into a fairly far reaching discussion regarding the current “look” of life. We were considering also specific changes, which have and are occurring in our lives, paying special attention to our own response to such changes.


Further thought, in a more private setting, has occurred as of late as to the will of God and how that applies to my life. I can say with great certainty that when I am fully listening, I mean from moment to moment, I hear. The process looks like this: I make a conscious decision to surrender my will and my life to God. Sometimes this occurs to a John Eldredge taught level, asking God, “do I turn right or do I turn left?” These times find me truly “walking with God”. What level of pride must then occur causing me to leave a perfectly sound blueprint for life, take control, beginning once again to make decisions based upon my own best thinking?

Well, a fairly high level of pride is the answer. Looking in hindsight, God had offered up his still small voice on numerous occasions. He said, “umm Scott, not that way, how about this way instead.” He put up various caution signs, He voiced His concern, He warned, He cajoled and then ultimately He left me to his wonderful gift of free will.

I wonder how the story of the prodigal son plays out? I understand if my reading is from a personal, “His Word is speaking directly to me” place or attitude, that I am in fact the prodigal son. The father of the prodigal then represents my Heavenly Father and He waits with expectancy, my return. Gosh, I love that story as I have lived it over and over again. Often I feel that level of love from my Abba, but am always in awe of a God who can love each and every one of us in such a manner. That love stirs in me a desire to be in as close a relationship as possible to such beauty and grace. Yes, I wonder how the story moves on from, “And he said to him, “Son you are always with me, and all that I have is yours. It was right that we should make merry and be glad, for your brother was dead and is alive again, and was lost and is found.” Luke 15:31-32. Do you imagine that the prodigal happened from this point to never sin again? Do you imagine he began to act as the older son in self perceived perfect and righteous ways? Or….Do you think it possible the prodigal son on occasion stumbled, repented and was welcomed into the waiting arms of his father? Let me speak for the prodigal son, as it would in my opinion, fall into the latter.

And he arose and came to his father. But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him.

Luke 15:20

I believe I can speak further on behalf of the prodigal son. When his father falls upon him it is done in great expectancy. Great love, great compassion, great graces are the gifts of the father. Unspoken though at this point is the further idea that the father may have some expectations. Recently, I have returned from the “far county” and yes my Father fell upon me full of compassion and love. At the very same time I felt the loving arms of my Father I heard his whisper, “Scott, I desire for you to make some changes.”

Changes…personal and eventually some well thought out corporately discussed changes in and about Joy Squared. I will be fully transparent with the changes occurring in my own life and look forward to the discussion regarding Godly inspired changes involving Joy Squared. The discussion is open and will continue……………I truly, to my core, believe that God is fond of us.